When the pain is in
I am not here
I am trying to be
as far from my body
as possible
but that’s not possible
because all thoughts
summon in
one particular point
lower left part
a knot
It erases
my inside being
With severe brutal impulses
saying
who is the boss
You can’t overcome it
easily
you have to tame it
like a hungry
wild animal
with shutting yourself
of that unfair fight
into unconscious sleep
even dream
so you are not here
when it rules
you go somewhere
where it temporary
disappears
and you feel lightweight
when it finally
decide to leave
it’s only to remind you
that it will
eventually, come back
on the same address
you can’t move out
of your own body
change the address
when the pain
is searching for you
you can’t
you can’t even say
I am not here
because you are
you are more present
in the absence of your energy
because people miss
the real you
thus the pain and you
are one
in dispute